Goodbye, Lover

I have to ask myself, where did we go wrong?
As I drown my sorrows in this bottle of Patron.
I feel this emptiness inside of me.
I've fallen apart, like pieces of debris.
No, I won't let any tears fall from my eyes,
Better off being single than living in a lie.
I tried to express my undying love,
But I guess that just wasn't enough.
What more can a heartbroken girl ask for?
Just someone different from the ones before.
I tried to give you my all & you became my downfall.
Now, back to building up the walls.
Its difficult when you expect things to go a certain way.
When I was ready to turn over a new page.
Now I'll show my tears through my words,
Kinda feels like I'm moving backwards.
Where do I go now from here?
I gave everything I could, my dear.
Nothing left after all this time,
Can't say I don't love you,
I'd be lying in my mind
And we know I've spoken the truth.
Its sad it has to be the end,
When we didn't even start right.
I'll have to accept you as just a friend,
All I really wanted was my knight.
So this is the moment where we must part,
And I say goodbye, my heart.
You were once a part of me,
Now you've become nothing but a distant memory.

The Letter

I've walked down this path before,
It looks SO familiar.
I told myself I wouldn't do this once more,
But I'm seeing a different picture.

I'm throwing myself into the lion's cage,
Letting it immerse me with all of its rage.
I should be used to it but right now, I am afraid.
My words become lost, I don't know what to say.

This shouldn't be new to me
But there's so much I cannot see.
Blindfolded to the effects of you,
But I know this feeling is true.

I don't want to be maimed, I don't want to be hurt.
Just simply searching for that old comfort.
I don't want to repeat things of the past,
Because obviously that's why they didn't last.

Love me as I am, that's all I ask for,
I'm giving it one more try.
The key to my heart is all yours,
One more chance to keep Love alive...

Love YOU

There are some things in life that aren't easy to understand. We start to ask ourselves this infamous question: "Why?"
Why did it have to happen a certain way?

Why did it have to go down like this?

Sometimes, we just have to deal with the outcome of situations and MOVE ON.
We can't dwell on the past or what was but didn't really become.
At the end of the day, make sure YOU are happy with the person you see in the mirror and not giving yourself the 3rd degree asking "Why?". Be confident in who you are, what you are capable of.
Whoever you are reading this, you obviously can relate to the point I am trying to make. Love who you are, even if someone else doesn't. xoxo

The Addiction

I'm in love with the allure,
The illusion of love.
When it is only lust,
And there is no cure.

I wonder why your touch is what I crave.
The passion pumping like adrenaline through my veins.
Something like a drug, i need a heavy hit.
i'm hooked to your ecstasy, addicted
I gotta have you, but this isn't what I'm used to.
Now I don't know what to do, help me out, give me a clue.
Withdrawals setting in, my mind is racin'

Come back to me, almost like you complete me.
Without you, I feel like I can't truly see.

In reality, I am blind.
My eyes covered, I don't have real sight.

It hurts more than it helps.


Through my fixation, I've lost myself...