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Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Bipolar

Attempting to shadow my bad intentions,
It becomes difficult to show the good side some attention.

The reason for my manic depression,
You have become my guilty obsession.
I smile when I envision you,
But it soon turns to a frown because I know I shouldn't love you.

A taste of the forbidden fruit,
I yearn for a bite,
My thoughts are awfully wrong,
But yet, it feels so right.

Is this good or bad?
Should I be happy or sad?
I am not sure how to feel,
How do I know what's real?

You have made my emotions run through this maze,
My heart battling with my mind over the mess its made.

Maybe one day, everything will seem much more clear.
Until then, my thoughts will remain joyful with fear.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Ecstasy

Grab my hand and lead me into the bedroom,
Lay me down on the soft, silk sheets.
I know this time was going to arrive soon,
Now let yourself indulge in a sweet treat.

As you caress my body with your slick tongue,
Tracing the artwork that covers me,
Your touch has left me absolutely stunned,
I quiver, as an overwhelming feeling comes over me.

Wait, slow down, I'm not ready to reach my peak,
But you refuse to listen, as you feel my knees get weak.
You start to move rapidly, as you hear my moans get louder,
My body loses gravity, you take over my soul with your power.

As I climax to the point of ecstasy,
I am finally at peace in my moment of clarity.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Heartbreak Sonnet

I once thrived off of your powerful energy
Now I am weak, you have become my enemy
What once were sunny days and shining nights
Has turned into a horror film filled with fright.

Afraid to close my eyes and sleep,
In fear of losing you in my dreams.
My mind is the only place where you'll forever stay
So I must protect my thoughts from running astray.
I am lost, wandering alone in the darkness,
You were my light, without you now I am sightless.

Can you hear my cries?
Do you feel my pain?
It seems as if all hope has died
This beautiful portrait horribly stained.

Our perfect image has become distorted
All attempts to save US has been thwarted.
The fairy tale that was supposed to have a happy ending,
Is now turned into a nightmare with no hopes of mending.

I have always believed that this insane romance had some possibility to be saved,
But I now see the inevitable and there is no opportunity to change.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

The Mystery of Consequence

In the beginning, they were picture perfect,
But all good things look good on the surface.

Take a moment to remember what it felt like,
When you both used to glance into each other's eyes.
Their bond was inseparable, unbreakable,
But all it took was one slip to change the rules.

Now, though, does he even realize,
That his heartless ways have damaged her life?

Where is the affection that once was?
His image of her perfection now tainted by her actions.
So this young girl suffers greatly now,
Her beautiful face constantly displaying a frown.

She wishes she can travel back and change the past,
What's done is done, yet the consequences will always last.
She never expected it to end this way,
Now things are going completely wrong because of a mistake.

What will it take to get back in his good grace?
She has already tried so many different ways.
Apologies sent, never accepted so she's still losing,
But walking away for her is an option she is refusing.

She has tried to erase his image from her memory,
But his face doesn't wish to fade easily.
Repressed mistakes that seem to remain,
He doesn't allow his mind to let it slip away.

So for now, she is hoping this love can be saved,
Because without him, she feels she will never be sane.

Maybe one day he'll come to his senses and see
Her regret and accept her apology..

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Road To ...

I will not fail, I will not back down,
Although I might be imperfect, my luck isn't maxed out.
My determination is my motivation,
I achieve to succeed, I gain my power from frustration.

I know many would want to see me fall,
They wished I had my back against the wall...

I REFUSE to be what others hope I would be,
I am the only one who controls my destiny.
You can never tell me I cannot fulfill my dreams,
Because inside of this beautiful mind, I am free.

You cannot hold me down, stop me from reaching the top,
I shall look at you from the clouds, in my rightful spot.

You can push me down, but I will always rise again.
Through the struggles, I will never be stuck behind a closed fence.
And if I ever see myself steering off my road to success,
I'll look back and remind myself that I shall be blessed.

Nothing can stop me, I will not quit,
Because my fate keeps telling me something different.
So as I sit here writing these words from my heart,
Remember, In the end, your success comes from the struggles at the start.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Lessons Learned

There comes a time when we all have to face our demons,
Well, mine seem to haunt me even when I am dreaming.
We can try to run but it is almost like we can never hide
From the secrets we hold deep down inside.

I always hoped I could snap my fingers to make things perfect,
Change my decisions so that I can say, "it was worth it."
I try to mend together the broken pieces of my past,
But I realize there is no need to fix something that did not last.

As I recollect my thoughts to see what I have missed,
Memories run through my mind like a screenplay.
I get to review all that I have dealt with,
Watching all the love, death, hate, heartache and shame.

As time passes by, we hope that we can forget
All of the things we have done that we might regret.
What we don't seem to realize is this is all fate,
What is meant to happen will, no matter how small or great.

I know I haven't been an angel my entire life,
But I don't deserve to get presented with strife.
I know I am human and I have made quite a few mistakes,
But I am glad because it has made me the person I am today.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Deception

Your charming smile captured my eyes,
Unaware of what was actually your disguise.
I fell deep into this pool of fantasy,
Believing what I saw was reality.

You made me think that you were a perfect being,
A devil in sheep's clothing was what I was seeing.
Your words covered my brain so smoothly like silk,
I was consumed whole by your incessant thrill.

A man who controlled my entire body and soul,
With your words swallowing me into this black hole.
I felt lost without you, you were my existence,
With you, I had absolutely no resistance.